Visualization

Visualization or imagining it in your head is considered part of any spell making, it referred to by some as positivism or positive thinking, it is considered as part of The Secret.

Thus, I always think of Chili crying, remorseful, of being sick... dead and lying in a coffin. But I also have to admit that I am not also that consistent at times in my imagery of what should be her punishment, it varies with the degree of my emotions. When I feel good and forgiving, I simply try to forget her. At times, I feel so sorry for everything that has happened, I wish her a longer life, sitting in a wheel chair, with half of her body dead, she being a vegetable, drool streaking on her face. Then, I would be thinking, with her medical condition, surely she and her evil daughters would simply suck blood on my father - cutting into what should be my family, to my two nephews, then she would be better off dead.

Others might consider it waste of time, effort, and resources. But somehow, I feel good making a paper coffin with her inside. This is how I envision her, and I see it would be for the good of all. Afterall, in any telenovela or soap, once the antagonist is gone, the story ends. And I pray it all ends with her ...

(Yes, I know, there still lies the problem of the alleged half brother - from a previous mistress of my father. But then, that is another story.)

Easter thinking....

Two years hence. So much changes, I am no longer the same person I was. Legal action proved futile for my forgave my father and I have no right to file charges, or file anything. But it does not stop the hurt, no matter how silent we are, no matter that we do not talk about it - it is there.

I was so mad and angry that I had to fight a basic instinct - to release that negative energy in me, I would have killed the mistress or pay someone to kill her. Somehow from the legal point of view, I walked an alternative, silent path. Yes, I have been labeled and called a witch. Would I deny it? Nahhh, no used denying perceptions. What matters is justice.

It is justice that I seek, karma for them. Thus, I planned and thought of a ritual, a spell I did .... soon I learned Chili had suffered a stroke and it was said she is half dead, her face mis shapen.

Tabingi na raw mukha ni Chili. Biro naman ng mga pinsan ko, tabingi na raw ang pekpek ng puta. It did not matter really, the news made me smile. I asked for divine justice, I beseeched the spirits for mercy, I asked the elements for her to suffer. And I was heard.


Black friday. So much have been said about this day being a potent day for spell casting. That day, I did another prayer. I asked for her to suffer, and am sure her affliction was definitely uncomfortable uneasy. Now, I asked for her death. Now, I asked her to be gone from our lives, for us, for the rest to start our own healing. Chili Uy is a scourge on our lives, she is the cancer that ate my family.

I have said my prayer, to others, to some, it was a spell, a ritual. Como sea. Whatever. I want to start healing, and one cannot heal when the virus or the sicknesss is still there. I wait for her and her evil daughter, Catherine Uy to be begone from this earth.

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